Balance & Happiness

Sorry friends! I am such an inconsistent blogger. I love reading blogs, but keeping up my end of the writing is sort of a challenge. Especially now that I'm back to spending my days in front of a computer writing.
I am constantly struggling with balance. The "right" amount of time to ascribe to anything. Sadly I'm sort of an "all or nothing" girl. I am also terribly indecisive. More so now than ever.
It used to be just little things. What to eat for dinner, or which deodorant to buy, but now it's so much bigger. What should I do with my life? Do I want to be a psychologist or an attorney? Or none of the above? Should I go to graduate school this fall or wait for a better program, a better opportunity, etc. Have I found something I really love? Am I settling?
AND WHY OH WHY do I keep changing my mind? If this is self discovery, it is certainly a much curvier path than I expected. I am trying to enjoy the process. The journey, if you will. and I am. Truly. But sheesh, sometimes I just want to be there already!!


Anyway... The lovely blog The Rockstar Diaries has been posting happy lists lately. Lists of 10 things that make people happy. Reading everyone's lists (and seeing their beautiful photos) have been making me happy.
So I decided to make my own. I think everyone should follow suit and post their own lists. because thinking about what makes you happy, actually makes you happy. So make yourself happy, and let me know so that I can share in your happiness.

My list of (15) things that make me terribly happy:
1. Making plans
2. Scrapbooks and memories
3. Happy hour (blue moon beer with extra orange slices)
4. Surprises & thoughtfulness
5. Festivals (and excuses to drink during the day)
6. Fresh fruit from the Farmers Market (strawberries, mangoes, peaches)
7. Falling asleep (& waking up) to the sound of the ocean
8. Being inlove
9. Crawling in to a freshly made bed
10. Snowglobes & heart shaped glass paperweights
11. Cooking with my boyfriend
12. Holidays (& traditions)
13. Open air concerts
14. New seasons (especially Summer!!)
15. The future!

Back To Work

I'm just going to post in bullets because I'm overtired, overwhelmed, and just sort of lazy. Actual structure sounds way too complicated.
I want to blog, but everything has been changing and shifting, and clarity is such a distant memory that I don't even know where to begin.

-Tomorrow I start my new job. This is a job that I interviewed for on Friday, that I didn't plan on getting. It completely changes all my other plans, or not, depending on whether I want it to. It is in an industry that I have never worked in, doing something I have never done, and to be honest I'm actually really excited. I am also super duper nervous. The best part of it is that one of my good friends (who I met at my last job at the ad agency, who set me up with my boyfriend) now works at this company. She is the one who got me the interview (which I almost didn't go to.) Having a friend definitely takes away some of the first day nerves. Which is good since I get really nervous about things like first days (and interviews!).

-Life has been chaotic. but exciting. I am loving the options, hating the decision making. And so I am saying yes to almost everything. And hoping to figure it out along the way. Clarity comes with time, right?

-This weekend was wonderful. The stress of hating, not having, and looking for a job the past few months completely dissipated. Job offers on Friday afternoons definitely set your weekend off to a great start. This was furthered by going to a Dodger game with some friends on Friday night. It was our first Dodger game of the season and the BF bought us each a dodger hat. I am not really a hat person, but I absolutely love this hat. I love that he thought to get me a "girl one," that it fits perfectly, and that it is a sign of summer time and all the games we will go to together.
-Yesterday we had a little Kentucky Derby get-together. My friend Shannon & I dressed up in Derby attire (while the boys laughed at us), and we all watched the Derby. My pick (Pioneerof the Nile) came in second, so that was exciting. In the evening the boys had an alumni event at their fraternity house, so Shannon and I went to an R Kelly 'Trapped in the Closet" party. I had never actually watched the whole R Kelly movie/ musical, and it was certainly "interesting." The rule was that everytime R Kelly sang the word "closet" you take a sip of your beer. Lets just put it this way. He says closet a lot.

I hope everyone had a fabulous weekend! Is it weird that I'm excited by the return of Sunday nights actually meaning something? Is it even worse that I'm excited to start the weekly Friday countdowns again? Weekends are just far more special when you're stuck in an office all week long. I know I'm going to hate myself for writing that.

I DID appreciate this time though. Really & truly, it has been a great (& much needed) break, but I am beyond ready for this new challenge. Have a great Monday lovelies!